I had to Separate Because
of the Abuse and Cheating

by Beatrice Clarke
(Queens New York)

My husband and I would of shared our 2 year anniversary on 4/24/2011. We had a fight and this time our 3 month old daughter was in the crossfire and almost got hurt. That is when I realized that my unsaved husband who I've been praying for (when I gave Jesus my life we were both unsaved) has no intentions of changing his behavior.

I've had him arrested before when I was pregnant because he choked me so hard I felt like I couldn't breathe. He cheated on me right after I gave birth to our daughter in January of this year (I almost didn't make it but praise the Lord I'm covered!) He was keeping a lot of secrets from me and emotionally involving himself with women online on Facebook and other social mediums.

I have not been perfect either. I have been a very jealous person and I have had trust issues (that he knew about from the beginning). I was praying for healing and found Christ which gave me confidence and self esteem so I no longer needed to be validated because the Lord deemed me special.

Anyway, my husband is a good caring man but he needs salvation and healing with strong counsel so that he can see how much Jesus loves him. Until then only God knows the intentions in his heart. I had to have him arrested and got an order of protection against him for me and our baby due to his violent nature.

I'm praying for him and asking God to help me forgive him and let this hurt go. I just hope he receives Jesus so he can be a better man. Not for me or our marriage, but for himself. I pray that I can heal from the hurt because my daughter needs her parents. She is a gift from God and I appreciate what I've been given.

Please pray for me and my situation in HIS name